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Momish

Momish

I believe that I am a Momish

I feel as if I am already a Mom, just maybe lacking some aspects of the literal definition of  the term Mom. But day in and day out I am a Momish...

The first thing I think about in the morning when I wake are my future children. The last thing I think about as I close my eyes at night are my future children. Day in and day out I fight for my children. I fight to be strong and I fight to not give up on them.

I KEEP PUSHING FORWARD KNOWING THAT ONE DAY WE WILL MEET AND ONE DAY I WILL HOLD THEIR HANDS IN MINE. 

I have given up my body for my children. I have bruised my stomach and thighs with shots to help create an environment they can thrive in. I pump my body full of medication that makes me mentally feel more like Joan Crawford's Mommy Dearest to ensure that they get nothing but the best place to grow. 

I put them first. If it were just about me... I wouldn't do the medicine. I wouldn't take the shots. I wouldn't research every doctor, every procedure, or every option available to ensure we as a family get the best care.

I ALREADY LOVE MY CHILDREN MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF. 

I am a Momish and I am damn proud of that. 

So, on Mother's Day I am not sad. I am hopeful...hopeful because I know in time there will be a Mother's Day where the only tears I shed are those of joy. I will look back on the hard times and be proud of the Mom I was before I met my children because that Momish part of me is the one that holds the strength, hope, and perseverance on our journey to meet our children.

 
Barbados Here We Come... Round 2

Barbados Here We Come... Round 2

IVF #1: Successfully Unsuccessful

IVF #1: Successfully Unsuccessful